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Best of the Net 2024

October 6, 2023 ·

I’m blown away to have received five 2024 Best of the Net Nominations from five literary journals this year. I haven’t published much written work, so I was extra pleased that MoonPark Review, a gem of a journal, nominated my “The Short Lives of Wombats” piece for the prose poems category. And Petrichor nominated an ekphrastic piece about a Joan Mitchell painting. As an artist, this made me especially happy. While ekphrastic writing is popular among poets (and published a lot), mine have always been hard to place. Maybe because they tend to be a bit raunchy. Whatever… This made me happy.

I haven’t previously received any nominations for art, so the following BoTN nominations were also extra special. Anti-Heroin Chic, a journal that has treated me very well over the last few years, nominated a photograph. And Gone Lawn, a journal that also blessed me with repeat publications and previous nominations, nominated my cover from Issue 46 for art. And finally, Sage Cigarettes Magazine, whose staff have been so good to me, nominated my asemic piece, “Love Letter to Queers Who Suicided” for art—and having this come out during Suicide Prevention and Awareness Month makes it extra special. Of course, making it to the finals or getting selected is a super-long shot, but being nominated is a huge honor, and I’m so grateful to the editors for selecting my work.

Following are some screenshots of some of the nominees. I’m wishing you all the best of luck and a huge congratulations. And while I trust the editors’ expertise, I realize there was a huge element of luck in this, and there are lots of deserving published work out there that didn’t receive nominations, and even more who haven’t made their way into zines yet.

Thank you Amy Barnes, Owen Wyke, Seth Copeland, Caleb Jordan, Sadee Bee, L.E. Francis, Stef Nunez, Mary Lynn Reed, Leslie Weston, James Diaz, Roy Duffield, and the staff of these journals for all their dedication to literature.

And lastly, if you are an editor, please know that you can submit art including covers, visual poems, visual erasures, and asemic art to Best of the Net. I felt bad seeing again this year many journals who solicit art not submitting art (when they submitted for other categories). Artists are important contributors to indie lit.

Here are some links to my BoTN nominations followed by screenshots of some of the nomination promos:

Love Letter to Those Who Suicided | Sage Cigarettes

Untitled Photograph (second image) | Anti-Heroin Chic

The Short Lives of Wombats | MoonPark Review

The Hudson Looks Different | Petrichor Magazine

Issue Cover | Gone Lawn


pink and blue abstract swirls with Anti-Heroin Chic's 2024 best of the net nominees
drawing of girl on top of spooky buildings with text for Gone Lawn's 2024 best of the net nominees
orange background with text for moonpark reviews 2024 best of the net nominees
pink background with purple and pink text and names for Petrichor's 2024 best of the net nominees
tan desk with tape and pen and best of the net 2024 text for sage cigarettes

Also, I’m due to write another publication update. I wrote one in April, but this will probably be in December, as I’m beat. To see my latest pubs, however, check out my What’s New page.

Wuthering Heights Erasure Poem | Publication

May 13, 2023 ·

erasure poem white over a page of wuthering heights with jagget lines and holes

Grateful to have erasure work in (Re) An Ideas Journal. Thank you H.E. Fisher and Felice Neal for including me. Pleased to share space with James Diaz, M.A. Scott, Twila Newey, and everyone else!

Check out my other posts and pages for more Wuthering Heights visual poems. They are inspired by someone I love and lost but explore a range of subjects, including grief, women’s issues, and suicide.

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2023 Koss Publications | April Update

April 1, 2023 ·

  • Koss 2023 great big publication update—plus when Kali comes to straighten you out—replete with angry gods & convenient skip-to links for busy people
  • Linkables
  • Video Poems
  • Publication in San Pedro River Review
  • Through the Body’s Bramble (from tiny corpus)
  • Two Poems About Cranial Sacral Therapy from tiny corpus

Koss 2023 great big publication update—plus when Kali comes to straighten you out—replete with angry gods & convenient skip-to links for busy people

abstract kali image in blue and purple colors
Thank you Sonika Agarwal for the use of your Unsplash photo as a point of departure.

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While I’ve been super-blessed with numerous publications recently (thank you, kindly, editors), the strangeness of this year has given me pause on all fronts including curbing my submissions and creative production. Of course, I’ve had worse years with more calamity—even recent ones, but this is like a cosmic tornado, kundalini-crisis-scale stuff where all you want to do is take a spring walk and the sky hurls shitting cows, canceled things, broken furnaces, and, of course, rejections from overhead, and mostly not the nice smudgy-ink handwritten ones that don’t really feel like rejections. That was in another incarnation, actually.

You know you should take cover, but there are only vast roundup-laden fields in shades of faded VanDyke brown surrounding you—and no socialist-sexy-dyke-farmers-with-tractors sowing those fields. There’s nowhere to hide from the insistent sky, its angry, driven gods and their secrets, and relentless unmet needs and bullshit. (Note I’m more at peace than I seem, but I like how this sounds. I’m sort of a writer, after all).

Whether this life shit is due to karmic debt, a cosmic bad hand, or just my own bungling is unknown, but we are living in the age of Kali Yuga, and things have not been easy. *If things are easy for you, and you have a success secret, feel free to leave it in a comment. Feel free to also indicate if Kali (the goddess) has chopped off your ego or the ego of someone you know. What might this even look like? Did you make awkward small talk after she did the deed?

From what I understand, Kali shows up for writers all the time. I saw a somewhat funny video by a healer (Tanishka) that implanted some of this imagery in my head, so I can’t take full credit here, but Hindu goddesses have always resonated with me. So back to comments, please do leave them: Your comments remind me I’m not alone in the cyber void and WordPress is not really my personal diary after all.

My Submittable queue is sparer than my vegetable/fruit bins in my broken fridge, but it’s okay. As I trudge through life sludge and sundry disappointments while worrying excessively about the predetermined and determined things, I know it’s cool to take a break and reassess (what I tell other writers) where I’ve been and where I’m headed, and don’t worry about me. I’m fine because I take ashwagandha. ;-).

*If you’re here to find links to my recently published work, feel free to zoom down the page using my magic link and skip the details. Or check the summary above or click to scroll down to see some cool video poems from recent publications, losing winners, etc. When I feel stuck in life, I provide dizzying options for bouncing on a page, which is actually a lot easier in terms of movement—plus you can just sit there. *Hint, if you follow me on Instagram, I usually get around to posting there. I know it’s the show-and-tell platform (do they do that anymore in school?), but rest assured, there won’t be a zillion selfies in my car there. It’s mostly art, poems, and other people’s work I share.

If all this damn text scares you, I don’t blame you—it fucking scares me too! Someone throw us a life jacket! This blog post was modeled after my grandmother’s Canadian cousin Vera’s family update letters that no one wanted to read, but that she sent out religiously after each annual camping adventure with that Texan dude she abducted after they both became suddenly single in their late 60s. Like the gods with their cows, she was determined in all the ways, which included driving her big RV across the continent, changing tires, starting multiple health food stores, practicing homeopathy (along with pendulum reading—plus other kinds of divination), and bagging conservative Texan widows she mistook for exotic, all while proselytizing religion (Reorganized Latter Day Saint). She was amazing really—in all the juggling, comical, and spectacular ways. He was, however, unremarkable and a know-it-all—which spared the rest of us from having to know or contribute anything to the get togethers other than food.

I realize something Vera didn’t: Nobody likes to read, and the Book of Mormon is no exception to this fact (I say this as one who was raised Reorganized Latter Day Saint—the book is frightening—the decapitations especially—none of it stuck—I had my own “non-denom” thing going on, and yes, I realize Kali is not cuddly, but I just can’t resist a sword-swinging goddess, as she showed me this year). Without friction, I accept the failure of our culture to appreciate words including RLS ones (also because I take ashwagandha). But I write anyway because I have compulsions and other things wrong with me. But why do you read?

What are you doing here, really? Do you know? Thank you for coming, regardless. I love you (really).

Gut Slut Bone Milk II Anthology with photo and poem by koss on black background

Despite my complaints this year, which I’ve really only dramatically hinted at, I’m blessed, like I said, to have some work coming out, so this post is, among other things, a gratitude post to those who had the kindness, discernment, and, in some instances, guts to publish my work. Again, the links are in a convenient clickable list below, not because I want you to go away, but because I love you enough to convenience you. I have work included in several anthologies this year, including Gut Slut Press’s Bone Milk II, Bending Genre’s Get Bent, and diode poetry’s Beyond the Frame (an ekphrastic anthology based on Patty Paine’s photos). All of these are fabulous! I’m so grateful to the editors and volunteers! The gut sluts at Gut Slut Press publish some really experimental and difficult work, and they can because they’re gut sluts. One of my pieces is a sprawling, hallucinogenic, trauma piece, plus a photo and a reprinted piece called, “You Drawing,” also published in Bending Genres.

pastel handrawn spots and colored scribbles with text - color therapy for beginners - diode poetry

In journals, I have a range of micro, flash, poetry, photographs, and erasure art published or forthcoming. I had a sort of fun, yet strange, “zuihitsuish,” poetic manual called “Color Therapy for Beginners” published in diode’s 16th anniversary issue. Couldn’t have written this piece without working a marketing job for years which included writing about organizing and decor and feigning interest in plastic yard rocks and chrome shelving. I’m hoping to write more pieces that riff off this past experience. I generally don’t aim to write likable things, but this one should be a pleaser with straightish women, trans women, queers, toy collectors, and well, everyone.

I also had a piece published in San Pedro River Review (I’m so glad neither the Alfiers nor Patty Paine have grown tired of me). I made short videos for these. I know some might think it’s grandiose to make videos and album covers for individual poems, but if you don’t celebrate your own stuff, who will?

Friday, Saturday flash promo with offwhite door and wall and text anti-heroin chic

Anti-Heroin Chic published photos and one of my most important pieces, a flash, about suicide, “Friday, Saturday.” This piece has garnered some mixed attention from good to really bizarre. As with previous suicide pubs, I immediately lost about 10 Twitter followers (talk about people not liking to read). The surprising twist though, Twitter friends were generous to share, and this piece is becoming one of my most-read pieces along with another piece published by Anti-Heroin Chic. So along with the usual unfollowing, I was really touched by the support. This was the last “must-publish” piece from this body of work. I’m sure I’ll still need to write about grief and suicide loss, but it felt good to put the lid on this particular container. I’m so grateful to Dylan and James for this publication—and to Roy for the photo selections.

pink micro fiction promo for flash boulevard with ventroliquist dummy face and grunge text

Flash Boulevard accepted four micro-ish fiction pieces. So grateful to Francine Witte for this publication, which includes grief, rats who are culinary experts, naked bosses, and ventriloquist dummies. These pieces span many years, so it’s nice to see them share a page.

Also, I have work coming out any minute in Permafrost (the print issue) and (Re)An Ideas Journal (a Wuthering Heights erasure). Not sure about the dates. I thought March and April on these.

Harbor Editions 2023 microchapbook promo with pink background and winner and runnerup text

On other good notes, my micro-chap, tiny corpus was a runner-up/finalist in Harbor Editions contest. Congrats to Donna Spruijt-Metz, the winner, and all the finalists and semi-finalists. Ya’all should be proud. I decided to publish the poems in no particular order on Instagram (follow me to read them)—I post lots of graphics there, including most of my over-the-top “album covers” for my poems. I may illustrate them and publish a book at a later date, but right now, at least they are out there. All but one appeared previously in journals. The cranio poems in video below include a soundtrack that might induce a trance—or just put you to sleep.

Get Bent Bending Genres Anthology cover front and back with excerpt of koss zuihitsu

If you made it to this point, the rewards are below. Or maybe the rewards are scattered throughout. I’m not likely to write anything this long in the future, and eventually, I’ll be posting short pieces about sundry things, including other people’s work, which I have done a bit already. Also, I’m working on a gallery of artwork, just something basic. If you need cover art, illustration, or web design services, feel free to contact me using my web form. Thank you so much for stopping by. Without you, there’d be little reason to do this! Of course, I’m open to you proving me wrong about “no one likes to read.”

Linkables

  • Anti-Heroin Chic, #CW, “Friday, Saturday”
  • Anti-Heroin Chic, “Photos”
  • San Pedro River Review, see video below
  • Bending Genres, Get Bent, “Fall of Toby and Lady,” See original publication and purchase anthology
  • Flash Boulevard, four micro/flash fiction pieces
  • Gut Slut Press, Bone Milk II, see excerpts or purchase
  • diode poetry, Beyond the Frame, purchase
  • diode poetry (journal), 16th Anniversary Edition, “Color Therapy for Beginners”
  • (Re) An Ideas Journal, Wuthering Heights Erasure/Visual Poem (forthcoming)
  • Permafrost, Wuthering Heights Erasures/Visual Poems (due out in March?)
  • Moonpark Review, “The Short Lives of Wombats,” (due out in June)

Video Poems

Publication in San Pedro River Review

San Pedro River Review Summertime 2023 Issue

Through the Body’s Bramble (from tiny corpus)

Through the Body’s Bramble from tiny corpus

Two Poems About Cranial Sacral Therapy from tiny corpus

Two Poems about Cranial Sacral Therapy and Grief from tiny corpus

Koss | Some Examples of List Poems

November 1, 2022 ·

Black and white photo of notebook with a gratitude poem, a canon lengs, and coffee cup.
Gratitude Poem Published in Scissors and Spackle

This article is broken into two parts: a preview of how to write list poetry and some examples of list poems. Incorporated into the text are offsite links to other people’s writing, but to read my list poems, feel free to scroll down the page. Yes, I know this is promoho, but these are why I’m able to talk about list poetry. *Hint: the last “vacation” one is the best. Writing list poems isn’t just for poets. Flash and CNF writers can use it as a way to generate ideas for mosaic flash or Hermit Crab essay writing — or to clear a block. It’s a powerful way to build material.

Writing List Poems

Writing list poetry is a great way to jumpstart your poetry writing. Use it to generate creative material or organize and refine it into finished works. Lists can be as short as a couple of words or extended into more descriptive passages or complete thoughts like a Zuihitsu. List poems, also called catalog or inventory poems, can be simple inventories of objects or events, or contained, tiny vignettes that refer to larger unshared stories. They may also spring from organic, subconscious connections you make as you write.

One of the powers inherent in list poem writing is in the disconnects that can happen between lines. When writing lined poetry, even in free verse, we tend to worry about transitions, flow, line breaks, structure, and narratives. Reducing the creative process to itemized lists frees the mind from these constraints, opening up a space for unexpected free associations or “barely connections.”

Constraints in List Poem Writing

There are no hard rules for writing list poems, but setting your own constraints can help you ease into the writing process. Poet Rob Carney suggests limiting list poems to ten items as a workable constraint in his guest post on Trish Hopkin’s site. I too respond to this number, and it’s a good fit for the average attention span (think about the 10 Ways To blog posts), I’ve also written much longer list-type poems, including a vacation diary written over several days and an abecedarian list or Zuihitsuish-type poem (scroll down for examples). Note that the Carney article has some good suggestions for relating your list items.

Lead-in Words for List Poems

Joe Brainard’s cult classic book, I Remember, while not strictly considered a “poem” is a short book of diary-like memory entries, each beginning with “I remember,” which is a powerful phrase for culling material from memory. I often use this when I’m feeling blocked and it produces some useful writing fodder.

Many writers have written list poems beginning with “because” which makes the poem an explanation for something. Major Jackson wrote a wonderful one, “Why I Write Poetry,” which explains just that. It was published in Ploughshares. Find it on Project Muse. Ellen Bass also published a list-type poem titled, simply, “Because” with more expanded “explanations” in which the “because” repetition is used to drive the poem. In “Soulwork,” Tracy K. Smith uses “one’s” in a restricted repetition bursting with tension from the variance of soul tasks in each line.

So using repetitive words to trigger memories or a poem purpose is one way to write a list poem, but restricting a list to an array of short descriptions of objects is another. What can an object refer to outside of itself and how might an object engage with time? Many writers have written about things/objects in grief, as those of us who go through it are usually confronted with the possessions of the departed. It’s powerful stuff.

One of my favorite list poems, which has been used as a springboard by many other poets, is by Ted Berrigan, “People Who Died.” It is a fairly straightforward list of people he knew, the dates they died, and the cause of death. Despite its simplicity, it packs a powerful punch.

More Creative Ways to Use Lists

List poems need not be limited to a single list. Multiple lists can converse with each other, or a list may be incorporated into a longer work or different form. I often use them to punctuate a poem or create offset stanzas or fragments, something akin to breaking into song. Feel free to be creative with them. Also, lists may be numbered, bulleted, or begin with emojis or scribbles, but how you choose to display them is as important as the words.

Gratitude lists, which are wonderful to write when you’re feeling depressed, angry, or frustrated, can also be made into list poems (see the examples below).

Using found lists and altering them is yet another fun way to incorporate lists into your writing. Don’t be afraid to get experimental with this. And if you are able to produce a good poem from an actual food or chore list, kudos to you! Actions, objects, inventories, chronologies, grievances, no matter what you start with, list poetry is a fun and differently angled approach to writing.

6 More List Poems

  • Let Me Begin Again – Major Jackson
  • Abecedarian for the Man Who Claims Birth Control Goes Against Nature – Grace MacNair
  • Inventory – Dorothy Parker
  • The End of Poetry – Ada Limon
  • When I Grow Up I Want To Be a List of Further Possibilities – Chen Chen
  • Catalog of Unabashed Gratitude – Ross Gay

Examples of List Poems Written by Koss #CW

While I’ve given links to some poems above, I’ll share some of the work I’ve published below. #CW there may be abuse, grief or suicide triggers in these.

Gratitudes (published in Scissors and Spackle)

Thursday Gratitude
deep morning sleep in the black nest
today’s cooler wind singing
grilled onions on a vegetable patty
someone’s prayer-like poems. published
silence. silence. silence. its sound.
someone who loved me for a moment
the dream about the bear across the woods
how congested things eventually crystallize
forgiveness when it comes
Ama’s crinkled fingers
the wind. the wind. the wind.

Wednesday Gratitude
birds at dawn. they know things.
dark chocolate almond bark breakfast
the beginnings and endings
my booklist i can soon indulge in
the off button
adventures i had in my previous life
adventures before me
the accountant’s ancient horse who cares nothing
the way some things get easier
each passage
the word no and its mastery
letting the weather

Desk (published in Hooligan Mag’s Spilled Ink)

  • Stapler shacks up with never-charge crystal in the open drawer; names not important; this is gestalt on my desk
  • Random numbers, 0-77; anyone can guess
  • Send me a job order and I inflate
  • Three green beer cansy empty; two mason jars for class; plastic spoons—oily and translucent red; memory of vegetables; McDonald’s dollar drinks—erect, yet empty
  • M & M’s, peanuts long gone; month-ago Sunday whoopee
  • SQL book topped by dom industrial tape gun, everything a sexual-retiree needs
  • Glasses no longer work but nerd worthy, the new backup drive failed also
  • A dappled jasper skull with healing properties I don’t remember; Cruella’s refuse—once belonged to Max; not a dog in site
  • The modem/router probably ate them; no things know the passkey
  • Candykiller urban toy glow-in-the-dark in box; Max’s gift before she checked out
  • Topped by wax-covered paper clips from the early 70s; Grams: relics of love, but who could tell
  • Music I can’t listen to; George Formby if ukulele could redeem itself; those bitch girls who eschewed melody
  • The Zen of web design from when coding might be transcendental or sublime or just an occupation unrealized
  • Superhero women reside on the top shelf; their waists all too small, but dig their big musculature and tapered ankles; inside asses are kicked and Jack Kirby takes a stab at feminism
  • Empty melatonin; a month’s grateful sleep
  • The hemp oil salve, not a miracle; citron-scented fraud-in-a-can
  • Everything I started and never finished piled on rubberwood; four years before; four years later; before Max; a life does

Things to Do When An Abuser Dies (Published in Hooligan Mag’s Spilled Ink)

  • Hunt their bits on the internet and download their pics from when they were living dead and through you.
  • That box of pins from the dollar store is loaded.
  • Make a bastard collage out of ripped up them. Pin it to the corkboard and decide later. Or wipe your dog’s ass with it right now.
  • Burn it or don’t burn it. Curl up in a ball with it wadded in your fists. Be The Raging Baby. Cry or curse them.
  • Shit, you don’t have to wait ‘til they’re dead.
  • Say some Hail Marys or don’t. Speak in tongues if that feels right. Take your head for a spin. Spew pea soup.
  • Admire your own easy grin.
  • Drown the photos in a fishbowl. No hurry ‘tho. You’ve your whole life, until you don’t.
  • Bless the golden fish, their flowing fins, and their black third eye that sees without judgment. They know what kindness is.
  • Ponder aloud how spouse, parents, friends cream all over legacy.com.
  • WTF is wrong with them?
  • Go out for a coffee in your car. A big seven-dollar latte. You can’t go in and wouldn’t want to. You vacuumed your car and threw out the trash yesterday, so it’s practically a goddamn limo.
  • Progress. It’s okay to celebrate. Or just feel what you feel. Nobody’s watching. You’re alone.
  • God is on vacation today. All of them. They do that, you’ve noticed.
  • Watch the rain bead up on your half-assed waxed window as the gray sky slinks away from the green slow globe—the globe and the glass and the thing that howls.
  • Turn on the radio, then immediately turn it off. Music just jitters the grief up from your bowels.
  • Maybe that’s okay. Put in your favorite CD. That CCR guy with the nasal voice. He’ll croon your demons out.
  • Eat French fries, which you never do.
  • Marvel at the nearly yellow splattered by red, a fast-food massacre of sorts.
  • You didn’t need the salt anyway. Something’s always missing. Health decisions gone red.
  • This could be a productive day. Did the world just get safer or is this just another blip in the terrene?
  • You’ll stay in your car instead.
  • There was more than one of them and more than one dead.
  • When you get home, you might even do an obituary search for fun or just discomfort. Count the creeps to sleep.
  • Remember where the gods are not.
  • Fuck it, you never confronted them! Too late. The way karma drifts from your grip.
  • You’ll just have to level the score in the next world.
  • Today’s dead was so nice, not intentionally cruel, just fucked up. Oh, but the damage they wreaked.
  • No stations to arrive at, even as the clock stops, you can’t drop anchor on the right side of things. Neither could they.
  • Lesson to tuck in your skanky hat: it bleeds and weeps no matter the intention, sadistic or stupid, a gash is a gash.
  • Let your skin untwist from its binding into new air. Slough off the musky wraps. They were never yours. Let the stench weep from your pores.
  • Invert the sun into your alien eyes as everything goes orange.
  • Feel your lungs contract. Exhale the swarms of bees and let your blood rush through the wires.
  • Who or how many are better off?
  • Just let the body moil in this lightsome world. It was nearly driven from itself.
  • (One is a [whole] number. So is one less. Or two.)

Love Song for a Friend (Published in Scissors and Spackle)

  • Lit up each time you flashed your heart-shaped mouth and skein of largish teeth, your skin was so creamy and your boyish jaw curved like another smile, or echo
  • Tried to understand your streaming red and yellow environmental fabric art the university grounds crew ripped from the trees—I understood their meanness
  • Impressed you made ten bucks an hour delivering pizza from your cream Honda (that was a lot of money then)
  • Didn’t stare at your mangled arm, eaten by the misplaced mailbox, but I wanted to and always imagined how it must have hurt
  • Still share your stories: Vermont, your rustic lesbian moms, the commune school where you all streaked on parents day . . . You were so different from me . . .
  • Loved your tangled black hair that looked so weird on occasion when you combed it
  • No one had your swagger—ass-in, pelvis first, like you were packing in those badass motorcycle boots paired with a Navajo-striped woven coat
  • Didn’t have sex with you when you were trashed and felt me up at the party You were with the coke dealer then who told everyone he was hung
  • Didn’t have sex with you when your roommates instigated an orgy (you drove me home)
  • Didn’t have sex with you when you dropped your clothes to the cement and dove into the pool after we broke into the Arbor Hills Club
  • Didn’t have sex with you when I held you and you were so drunk your eyes closed as you stroked my cheek—we fell asleep, you in my arms
  • I was waiting for the right sober moment, and then all the moments passed, but do know this was respect and with the deepest regret
  • What I’d do to you if you were still here

10 Things to Remember ‘Bout Me When I’m Dead (Another Version of this Published in Rat’s Ass Review)

  1. I was a victim more than once, but said no and no and no; I’m the craggy boxing bitch, staggering through the bloodstream. Dig my damn red lace-up boots, I wore them just for you.
  2. There is no obvious winning, but the living is getting back up until you don’t.
  3. Defense mechanisms, only a few: if someone fucks me over, I immediately forget their name; this one only improves with age.
  4. Tend to face the world so raw and open, some call me intolerable and over-intense; I’m a one-speed train with a lion for an engine and a cast-iron cannonball for a head. Fortunately, I’m also withdrawn and frequently tired.
  5. I once traded shirts with someone in the middle of a busy intersection in Ann Arbor during Art Fair. Afterward, we scaled a fence into a construction site and drank beer in a bulldozer claw.
  6. I made some beautiful things during this embodiment—sublime turnings from the fallen box elder, some wistful paintings for the dead museum— people liked or hated, a few poems that got the same reaction; I’m, therefore, immortal, so don’t miss me. I’m around in your basements and dresser drawers—and staring back atcha from the thrift shop walls and the musty bookstore shelves. You might have to work a bit—look at the table of contents, not the spine. I’ll surprise you maybe.
  7. They called me “Stone” when I played ball; I pitched. No one could shake me, they said. I threw up in private. Secretly, I hated team sports. Could handle tennis, with the opponent safely positioned on the other side of the net. Skirts gave me the shits.
  8. Made my grandparents Easter baskets from age nine until they died. Saw grams through her last eight years.
  9. As a child, I ate garlic to ward off my vampiric parents. I still eat garlic. Can’t hurt.
  10. I dug karate too including kicking dudes’ asses—but quit because the power of it made me uncomfortable; I’ve always been a bit at odds with me. It wasn’t the real world anyway.


Through the Body’s Bramble (Published in Feral Poetry)

Arcing over geography and a sea I can no longer bear: the abject abstraction of loss. A body aches.

Beautiful things of spring: touch a dark cord: blessings tethered just below the frost line and its filmy iris.

Counting anniversaries: forgetting eleven each month. The body slows, slumbers towards the next shock.

Deep below the crust, magnetic poles torque us like puppets. Humans flicker like ice flames along the planes.

Earth has its own plan: we are its moments. It bursts on with or without our grieving. A red-winged blackbird lies dead beneath the pine. A truck trailer bangs along the road: everything a roaring motion.

Fire too, tangos with air in a bedazzling splendor, then fizzles to ash, returning to air for a final dance.

Grief, like Earth and planets, has its own course, sifting through the body, a bitter lung-clog, it slogs through the body’s bramble.

Hours, not ours, mark each failure, not a forward motion, but synthetic stops in Akasha. Another form of human waste. Insert the battery. Press the start. Run ‘til you can’t.

Intimacy, incremental or instantaneous: also immeasurable. Star bursts along a thin-edged continuum.

Jagged lifeline / worn off my palm? The fortune-teller held the back of my hand for a moment. Said she couldn’t find it. Another medium said I’d live to be really old. I’ll take an average.

Katzenjammer Kidz, one with the sky for a forehead, race across a cartoon landscape, filled with four-color, moiré-esque hope. What did Grandma’s child-mind find there?

Love is a phantasm. A conjuring. A written thing. A memory. A once-burning. A retina receives through its cones. We are moving particulates floating in the vitreum. Between here and there.

Managing life in pandemic: Alone. Jobless. Without you. The deer ate my garden. Every tomato plant. I wander in dirt-stained socks. You should be building fences and mowing the yard. Each cold night is a new marker. Each hot one, a British memory-ache. I don’t miss your pigeons one bit, incidentally.

Nothing is the place we met. Companions in the abyss. Nothing was your God on a shitty day. A clean, well-lit nothing, Hemingway wrote. Nada-nada in chorus. His nothing has stayed with me like a tick.

Open your throat, your Gemini heart, your windows. Let out the burning and I’ll watch. Keep my mouth shut. Do something right. Take something back. Stop fucking up. You’ll be alive.

Pioneers of grief. Each of us, in turn. If we miss this passage, we might be lucky fucks.

Queer grief has its own rainbow flavors. When suicide. Curtains rain down. Doors close. The phone does not ring. No blips on the cell. Three brass monkeys cover their orifices in turn. Grateful for this nothing space in which I self-actuate, like in those self-help books. Amazing Gays: a popular gospel we sing.

Ribs: Adam, insecure, pretended to birth Eve. Male persuasion. Denial. Suspended disbelief. And just ouch! Who penned this one? Pandemic: another what-the-fuck moment. Your mask is infringing on my rights, said the Adam to the blues. Who owns the air, by the way? Is this negotiable? “Creation” is political, as are N95s. I know you, Max, would’ve masked. You were so sensical, except when you weren’t. Our births, too, were political acts we owned. We birthed ourselves, didn’t we? As if we could write our own stories. Then you took yourself out. Like you knew.

Shiver, lilies, like your first morning has come: planted for Grandma near a porch long gone. You know how short a day is. Yet you return every year, even without my love, an encore to the drooping peonies, whose fragrance still overwhelms me. The deer didn’t eat you.

Tell me something I don’t know. Anything.

Undergarments: I should have stolen yours, but only took what was given. Thank you for washing our clothes. They hung on wood racks in your home like tired ghosts when you died.

Vixen and a contradiction. Fishnets. Birkenstocks. Nihilist. Catholic. Hitchhiking to your own twin cosmos. I love you, Max. I miss every bit of you.

Wuthering Heights, your gift to me, lies pristine next to my bed. I finger your inscription and feel you near. Your favorite book. I bought a used one and tore out each page, one by one.

X-rayed hares with wounded hearts spilled from your pen onto Bronte’s mess. What might we understand in the inking and movements of our hands, where we conjure our gods through our wounds? I’m sorry, but I cannot like this book.

Yarrow grows wild along the road: tea for grief or skin treatments. If I could only distinguish it from Queen Anne’s lace. You used to listen to the music on a skincare YouTube to go to sleep. You were so funny, Max. Happy about people improving their complexions. Tomorrow I will find some yarrow and steep tea and drink you. There’s much to be lost and found in the ditches and weeds.

Z—do you count the protons in a single nucleus? Or just let them be? Can you hear the small sound in its spinning?

11-Month Post-Suicide Vacation Poem (Published in Isacoustic and Diode Poetry)

Day 1

  1. Aspheric wide angle on the browned forest floor
  2. Cabin musty of smells hanging
  3. Harley women warped on wall poster—30s—both long dead
  4. Man with short brush cut and beach-ball belly / fanny-packed in stars and stripes feigns straightness along the shoreline as his girl becomes one with driftwood
  5. Dogs couldn’t pee there
  6. Mammals couldn’t walk there
  7. I was tolerated but paid no money to get in
  8. I’m only partially a mammal and then, barely
  9. I should really have a garage sale when I get out of here
  10. Broken snowshoes make nice wall décor
  11. Soggy pretend barbecued chicken paired with flaccid yam fries
  12. I fucked you in my dream on invitation only
  13. Ophelia photo in cabin a bad idea
  14. Ophelia photo anywhere a bad idea
  15. Nothing happens for the best, so stop saying it
  16. Anne Sexton comforted me when you died; she looked so YouTube-happy talking about death, smiling
  17. Suicide is the ultimate jilting—really
  18. The frogs all start singing at the same moment
  19. In Australia, the cane toads fuck each other dead as jeeps drive over them
  20. Some things countries should never import: cane toads, ladybugs, Americans, Budweiser
  21. There were other possible endings to our story
  22. A choice is a fiction

Day 3

  1. You people won’t break me
  2. Cashier dripped nose onto my grocery bag
  3. Lately, I only dream in written words others write
  4. Memory is pine-resin sticky
  5. Memory does not stick
  6. You said you loved me
  7. Freckles, just a smattering
  8. A whole galaxy, gone
  9. You should be here with me
  10. You should be somewhere
  11. I should too, be a somewhere-thing
  12. A magpie sits on the lampshade
  13. Even if it isn’t a magpie, I make it so
  14. Crow, on the light switch cover too
  15. The light won’t glow behind the magpie-crow shade: opacity
  16. I talk to you even more now that you’re gone
  17. I hope you’re getting some rest over there
  18. I still worry about you finding me attractive or not
  19. Humans look better in clothes
  20. There’s no one here to keep you alive
  21. Someone else drives your car now

Day 4

  1. Inner self
  2. Inner tubes
  3. Floating
  4. Yellow weeds grow out of sand, browning flowers, no assists
  5. Sun beats smooth like a skin drum
  6. Her short black dress sways opposite her skeleton
  7. A man runs up the sand, catches up, and wraps around her
  8. Mine, says the hand, the hand on the handy wrap man
  9. Her white skin shocks through black straps dropping
  10. Beach lovers, silent picture
  11. July is our anniversary
  12. Some July              A previous July    Better                     We met
  13. Some August you die
  14. Some August you will always die
  15. Flies are still biting my legs
  16. They will die for a bite as I slap absent-mindedly
  17. Their lives tiny

Day 5 What Remains?

  1. Sketched a map of your lavender in the fire rings, so when I’m old, I’ll find them
  2. Why is that woman traveling alone
  3. Not happiness, something underneath the sand
  4. I can’t believe you forgot your body
  5. The horse-headed boy gallops back and forth along the platform
  6. The old dyke at the rock shop was cold—does she think no one knows
  7. I should feel happy for the beach lovers but don’t
  8. A Mexican-American woman transformed her life with tomatoes
  9. She saved her suicidal friend with beaches, free ones, and screened-in porches
  10. I wish we had gone to the beach like we intended
  11. Wish you had known her
  12. Wish I had known her
  13. That couples’ footprints along the shoreline look like one, yeah like that Jesus-God story
  14. Those straight people do get carried     and carried away   the Christians
  15. Men are gods
  16. I found two shells, two halves of us, I thought, then lost them in the sand
  17. Took a picture first
  18. Thought a lot about twos when I knew you, splitting everything like a child learning to share
  19. You were splitting, away
  20. Snake emerging from the water is only a stick
  21. I’m a tape recorder Eyes Windows Camera Obscura
  22. My house is a head

Gone Lawn Issue 46 | Flash | Koss

October 2, 2022 ·

Honored to have cover art and flash in Gone Lawn Issue 46. The artwork is hand drawn, then enhanced digitally. The flash, “The Dictations of Cabbages,” is, I think, a COVID persona piece written in the voice of a carrot on the moon. Okay, I hope I didn’t spoil it. It’s unlike anything I’ve written. Enjoy.

Gone Lawn flash publication with cabbage moon face by Koss--a green moon on black background
The Dictations of Cabbages, Promo Art for Gone Lawn Flash Piece by Koss

screenshot of gonelawn tweet with covert art for issue 46, woman standing with arms folded on a building in a dark city with spooky lighting.
Cover Art by Koss for Gone Lawn 46

Outlook Springs Best of the Net Nominations 2023

October 2, 2022 ·

Very pleased and surprised to be among Outlook Springs Best of the Net nominees for 2023. My poem, if William Burroughs Were Your Secretary, published in Outlook Springs print journal and online, was nominated. There’s lots of great poetry and fiction you can find on their site. Check out the print issue and my sound file on my audio page. Also, another funny poem about job interviews, “Core Values,” was published on their site and there’s also an audio file here on my website. I love Outlook Springs and am grateful to Jeremy John Parker, Andrew R. Mitchell, Jayce and Al Mitchell and the other editors for this honor (and for having a sense of humor).

Outlook Springs Best of the Net 2023 Nominations Promo
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